#very tmi

[artificial-hope]

Knowing that one of my kinks would send one of my friends into making a call out post makes me not really wanna be friends with them anymore idk

[fizzywrench]

Also this is TMI so its going on its own post, but I think im ovulating right now (I always get cramps on one side when it happens), and I've just had UNREAL amounts of discharge the last few days, like Im not even feeling horny because its been so busy at work so Im too stressed to let my mental gates down and relax, but yeah Ive got the Slick too, frankly its starting to get annoying

[youji-burgers]

lesbians put me in their purses like a little dog

[paradoxiii]

Guess what y'all: it's Bad Brain Time™

(And uh, tw for animal death)

Okay google: how to express that life fucking sucks & I feel hollow & worthless without worrying people bc I am of the mind that offing myself is simply not an option (bc for reasons I can never really internalize, there are various people I care about who will be very hurt if I stopped existing, plus y'know, "permanent solution to a temporary problem" & I have things I still wanna do)

I was already kinda struggling bc 1) seasonal depression (which is an improvement over the former year round depression woohoo) and 2) I started a couple classes & I haven't taken classes in like 2 years (plus I've been unemployed for almost a year now) so that's wearing on me

And then one of my family's pets died. In my arms. We've had her since 2016 I think? And she was already a couple years old when we adopted her. And her health had been on the decline. And even though she loved being close to or laying on my mom all the time, I was the one holding her when she passed.

So yeah! Life sucks and existence is a prison! But all bad things must come to an end & despite having self-worth that is less than dirt, I will continue on. I will be miserable, but at least I will continue to *be*.

[your-absent-father]

I cried yesterday because I got a smoothie. You can see why I haven't been here lmao. Not to out myself as a gamer but I have been Mondstadt most of this day. My most common symptom of this time is wanting to beat the shit out of someone and that's the most safest and legal way to do it.

[bluestation]

nami day!! 🧡💐🍊

[sillyguywithsillydoodles]

Cover up, ya bonnie

[carelessflower]

love as religion; a sacrament of devotion / malec special

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[kohdono]

:)

[artificial-hope]

Holy shit these lightening bolts up the ass are debilitating

[jasper-unofficial]

i think the bizarre thing about any top/bottom discourse isn't the fact that those labels are inaccurate (plenty of queer men have a strict preference). it's that this preference is so... devoid of any meaning other than just a personal sexual preference someone has that it's weird to be placing it on a character in such a blanket-statement way. there are no fandom-wide headcanons like that for straight people. no one's like "yeah, he only likes missionary" or "yeah, she doesn't like giving blowjobs".

and i understand that it's not exactly the same because straight people aren't going around labeling themselves as blowjob likers and blowjob haters or whatever but that is kind of what people who are so set on someone being a top or a bottom sound like to me. you are going to bat for just a completely neutral, independent of pretty much anything sexual preference. you are literally screaming, crying, throwing up, because you are dead set on a character only ever wanting to take it up the ass. because you cannot imagine them wanting to put their dick into someone else. for some reason. as if the idea of sticking your dick somewhere isn't immediately fun to at least consider. but anyway.

obviously, it's because people actually decided to reinvent gender roles and place them onto gay relationships by equating man/woman to top/bottom or at the very least masculine/feminine, bigger/smaller, etc. to top/bottom. and sometimes because people just confuse dom/sub dynamics with being a top/bottom. but that's the actual issue. i just also think it's weird y'all gather around, look at a character, and somehow decide "yeah, this guy definitely wants nothing in his ass".

[mirensiart]

tmi and also uh health conditions I guess?

this is the second month in a row that I get TWO periods in one month

Like in two months I’ve had my period FOUR TIMES?!

no wonder I’ve been feeling like absolute ass, I thought it was like a weird irregularity last month, but now it’s happened AGAIN

like I get my period, one week goes by, then I get my period AGAIN

listen….i do not have the time nor the money for health problems rn why is this happening now 🫠🫠🫠

idk if I should wait if it happens next month too or immediately go to a doctor now, my periods have always been very regular, so this is uh new to me

[2ndtryme]

Ptsd is so stupid like

Stop it 😡 stfu brain it’s fine

[lord-montgomery]

you ever think about the added challenge of dating simon after max..

you guys stop into the comic shop because it's on the way and simon wants to grab something, and you think nothing of it until you notice the title max had brought with him to idris featured on a shelf. and you freeze. simon notices and takes your hand, asks if everything's okay. and there's a piece of you that just wants to sob into his chest, but everything is still so new and you're still so guarded and the thought of breaking down like that makes you mad enough to clear your head and tell him enough of the truth without belying the pain. but when you try to pull your hand away, he tightens his grip for just a moment before letting you go. and you try to pretend that didn't mean nearly as much to you as it did.

and when you think of it.. you're glad simon doesn't wear glasses anymore, because of all the people in the world who wore glasses, you really only knew max. they'll always be associated with him in one way or another, and the reminder would be too constant.. years from now, though, simon will wear them again and all you'll think when you see him is simon, but that doesn't mean there won't still still be moments. you'll come home one day to find that he's fallen asleep on the couch. you won't want to rouse him, so you'll bend down to gently slide the crooked glasses off his face. and the muscle memory will be a flashback to all the times you did this for max. and then you'll wake simon anyway just so he can hold you.

[mariusslonelysoul]

Hand flex this, rain proposal that WHAT ABOUT the half hug from behind lizzie gives her mother after lydia and wickham leave longbourn, i wanna talk about THAT

[dulcewrites]

Hmm well now that Disney went and showed their asses (again), I feel like I can say this without putting bad juju out/jinxing anything. I honestly think the writing was on the wall when amandla, who was arguably the most excited pre the show coming out, essentially went radio silent. Then my gut feeling was only compounded by them (Disney - Lucasfilms - whoever) clearly pushing Qimir/Manny as the lead… which is just not how the show works??

There are possible reasons for that. As for pushing Qimir, it’s clear he (and maybe Sol as well) ended up being breakout characters from the show. I can’t begrudge that - Qimir is interesting as hell. But we see him through the eyes of our leads - he wants an acolyte. There is no acolyte without Osha and Mae. Also why isn’t Manny being pushed in tandem with the actually lead of the show. As for Amandla not being invited to things like d23 or swcj (like Manny), I’ve seen people be like “well, they could just be taking a break considering all of the racist stuff that’s been hurled at them”. And like yeah maybe, but you’d think the people that employed them, would ya know say something about it. Especially considering that Amandla has been burdened with dealing with racist since like the age of 12.

But this is Disney and Star Wars and Lucasfilms where everyone outside of the main story gets treated like shit.

Now for the thing that I didn’t want to put out there before actual news of s2 - I’m sorry but I can’t help but feel like this is them pushing the black nonbinary lead out so they pluck parts of the acolyte for something else. Because while I don’t cruelty pass them (releasing this news on Manny’s birthday is vile), something about them dragging Manny out in particular to several events knowing they were canceling the show just doesn’t make sense? Nothing is set in stone obviously but now I’m seeing people talk about them highlighting Qimir and Darth Plagueis (literally who gives af about that hag) but gutting the story of anything else.

I hope no one takes this as me saying Manny hasn’t dealt with his fair share of shit. He’s been outspoken about how hard it is being a Filipino man in Hollywood. But at the end of the day, Qimir (and by extension Manny) being a mysterious double lightsaber wilding MALE sith gives him an element of protection Osha and Mae (and by virtue Amandla) don’t have as characters. Because notice how much of the ire with the shows casting is about the lead character(s) being black women.

Anyway this is just me rambling about something that’s been on my mind. Tbh I actually have hope that it won’t happen simply because I don’t see the creator/writers of the show being down with that. Also Manny has been vocal about supporting Amandla and not being able do this without them